Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star

On August 13th, 2011 tragedy struck our family. Sometimes there are things that happen that you read about in newspapers. Those things don't happen to your family. Unfortunately, on this date at 8:00 p.m., It did happen to us. It has taken me a month to be able to write about it. I still pretend it didn't happen.

Chris's beloved Mother was killed by his Father who then took his own life. I won't get into extreme details but I will say it is something we NEVER expected. I consider his Mom to be the most ideal Mother-in-Law. I felt very close to her and was told all the time by her how she felt so lucky to have me. I felt lucky to have her too. She is somebody that everybody loved and nobody had a single bad thing to say about her. I texted her that morning and spoke to her the afternoon before. I know the last thing I said to her was "I love you". I am so thankful for that.

Everybody in our lives have been very amazing and supportive. I am happy to say Chris and I have sought counseling and it will be a very long road for us but we hope every day it will get a little bit easier.

Carsyn sang Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star in front of everybody to his Gramma Kimma at her funeral. He tells us all the time that Gramma Kimma is sleeping in the stars. Friends of Kim gave my Sons the most amazing gift by renaming a star "Grandma Kim" through the star registry. I am so sad that she is going to miss so much. I have to remind myself frequently that she really isn't missing a thing. She is watching it all.